What would you do?

There is a question I ask friends who come to me with existential questions about their life.

"If money was no object, what would you wake up every day and do?"

Today I got a rejection letter for a job I applied for. It actually was my first job rejection and for that I am grateful. A part of me knew I may not get it, but there was a sting at a different level in the e-mail. It hurt me because I almost threw away everything I've been building.

My job as an in-home support worker can be tough at times, but it is one of the most rewarding things I have ever been a part of. During the summer, I also have the privilege to teach a film camp with members of the autism community. Things are going very well for me with performing and, weather permitting, I have a few gigs already booked for this year.

I applied to the job on a whim. The pay wasn't the best and it would have meant I would have needed to give up some of the travel and conferences already planned for this year. It's also not a job I would have stayed in for the rest of my life.

After getting the rejection email, I had a conference call about the online classes, arranged another conference call for an upcoming writing project, and finished a posting for a class. Soon, I'll work on playing with my levi-wand and filming myself for a short fan video.

It takes some perspective to remember I'm not interested in the 9-5 life. A life of adventure is more my speed. Next month is my birthday and I am gifting myself a tattoo which is a very fitting reminder. It's the phrase Hannibal said while crossing the Alps and it's also a quote on my business cards.

Aut inveniam viam aut faciam

I will find a way or make one.